Of course our first wish would have been to hold her longer.
But now it would be to turn something horrific into something beautiful.
Try new things, learn from our grief.
I wish her to be remembered as our third child, for people to remember she did exist.
When we kind of ask for things like her sand pictures, that they aren’t silly, or that there is no need to do them.
To us as her parents they mean so much, it means that for the moment her name is being written, they’re thinking of her.
I’d have liked to help others through grief, but is proving to be harder to get the word out there than I thought, so I am currently hitting a bunker thick wall, not sure whether to carry it forward.
I like to think I have helped others via on line, so to do something, turn it around would be amazing.
I am hoping that all this can make me in to a better person, I know I talk about her so much, and have seen others change around me, I often wonder if I have changed in a negative way. Something I may need to work on.