Do you believe you have grown or are growing as a person since the loss of your precious baby?
How do you see other people now?
How do you see the world?
Do you believe you have a higher purpose?
Do you believe your baby had a higher purpose?
To be honest I don’t know if I have grown as a person.
I’m guessing that would be for the people closest to decide.
I know that since 1st April 2012
I have changed.
Somebody who has had to switch off their own child’s life support.
Isn’t going to be the same.
For me I see things differently.
I’ve had to see people walk away
Hear people tell me “Isn’t it about time you got over it”
It hasn’t just been about losing Melody
though this will be forever the most important in this aspect.
But seeing people not realising how their actions,
or at times lack of actions effect this path too
I hope I am a little more sensitive to others,
I know I have become a little sensitive,
noticing more people’s selfish ways.
I have more tolerance to things.
But at the same time have found a new intolerance to unnecessary dramas.
I see the beauty in things, where as before things I took for granted.
More aware of everything around me.
I’ve learned to smile again.
And even laugh.
While still at this moment in time
learning to keep my head up high.
People told me a year ago I would smile again.
And here I am