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then you were two

Then She Was Two

Today is the day you should have been two.
The day you should be ripping paper almost eager to know what’s inside..
Today is the day you were meant to turn two.
The day you could have been stamping your feet,
while needing to wait to try your new ride.
Today is the day you would have been two.
The day to jump around in welly boots,
Play hide and seek and eat chocolate mousse.
Today is the day that you won’t be turning two.
Your missing laughter, the silence that replaces you.
Today is the day we’re left wishing that you were two.
Still wondering, still holding on to memories so tight.
This time two years ago you came rushing into the world,
you were our Rainbow Baby our light at the end of the tunnel.
Our little Miss fidgety pants.
Today we not lighting candles for you to blow out,
we’re lighting them as a memory.
Today we are giving you flowers,
instead of toys…I can’t imagine ever giving a two-year old flowers as a present,
they would be disappointed. So why are we left to do this?
Today we have to try to not cry,to try to focus that we were “lucky” to have had you for the 5 weeks we were blessed with.
It may well be two years sweetheart,
but this year is harder than the first.
Last year I could say “I met you last year”
Now I can’t even remember your smell,
how soft your hair was,
or imagine how tiny your little nose was.
 I don’t even know what colour eyes you would have had. Your baby sister’s eyes are hazel.
Time hasn’t healed, it’s only taken you further away.
I can wish as hard as I possibly could, yet it would never come true.
I hope that if heaven is real to you that you’re having a wonderful party with your friends, flying high.
We may have only had you for 35 days, but we do miss you.
Happy Birthday Darling
Love always
Today is the day you turn two.
Mummy and Daddy
Capture your grief

Capture Your Grief 2012 Day One: Sunrise

Today the project begins with Sunrise. Which for us is very apt, the day Melody was born 26th February 2012, she brought the first of the Spring Sunshine. 90% of the 35 days that Melody was with us the sun shone, even wearing Flip Flops and vest tops, that time of the year, seemed crazy!
Weather had become one of the two things I became obsessed with in the first few weeks of losing Melody. If it rained I knew it was Melody’s way of reminding us of her, playing with the hose pipes, or turning on the heat lamps when (or if) the sun shone.
Today is also 6 months since we we’re told she wouldn’t survive. That she would in fact never come home. Our lives changed forever.
So here is my first instalment of Capture your grief, isn’t particularly done well as we don’t really have the beautiful sunrises that a lot of places have, Plus we’re surrounded by buildings, so here is the start of a sunrise
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Take two tomorrow